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A Guide to Anxiety


Like all aspects of nature, anxiety is a neutral thing. It is our perception which defines natural occurrences as good or bad; modern society often builds anxiety to be a negative element in our lives, constructing a world in which those who experience anxiety must have something wrong with them. Yet, anxiety itself is an evolutionary tool which can aid us in ways beyond its most primitively defined. This occurs when we are able to reframe our relationship with anxiety. I’ve spent the better half of my personal and professional life studying ways in which humans produce excellence while working with, what we are taught to be, malfunctioning cognitive processes.


I have had a unique relationship with anxiety since the age of six. Unlike what many Westerners assume when they think of the disorder, my anxiety saved my life time and again growing up; for a while in my tumultuous childhood, it became a baseline for not just performing but existing. Therefore, it wasn't seen as a hindrance, but a gift, and I began to discover ways to use anxiety to enhance areas of my life other than those regarding safety, i.e. athletics, academia, the arts, etc. Without a doubt, I have also seen how, when resisted, these elevated states of awareness become uncomfortable and often scary, sometimes leading to a full-blown panic attack and long-term chronic pain.


“Fear is the greatest obstacle to learning. But fear is your best friend. Fear is like fire. If you learn to control it, you let it work for you. If you don’t learn to control it, it’ll destroy you and everything around you.”

- Mike Tyson


Everyone experiences worry and anxiety, but some individuals begin to experience incorrect levels of anxiousness stemming from incorrect stressors at incorrect times. It evolves into a disorder when these spikes in fight-or-flight become chronic, irrational, and disrupt or impair our day-to-day lives. The greatest antidote to uncomfortability when experiencing anxiety is knowledge: understanding the different dimensional aspects of anxiety, biological, psychological, and spiritual causes as well as observing your own triggers, habits, and motivations.


Figuring out where to begin addressing the topic of anxiety alone can be overwhelming and frustrating. My hope putting together this article is that it serves as a guide for cognitively reframing how you perceive your relationship with anxiety and the topic in general.



What is Anxiety


Chronic anxiety happens when we or our nervous system stops living in the present and begin to get overwhelmed with potential past and/or future occurrences. This can be caused by life events, thinking styles, and evolutionary or biological factors.


The part of our brains behind this phenomenon is our amygdala, a small, almond-shaped set of neurons in the limbic system deep within our temporal lobe. The amygdala functions to keep us alert to danger, especially threats to our survival. During these moments, it sounds an alarm by outputting neurochemicals that prepare your body to deal with the threat. Breathing quickens, heart rate increases, muscles tense, and blood flow evacuates the torso to supply your arms and legs with more oxygen in order to fight or flee. The neurochemical is epinephrine, commonly known as adrenaline.


When faced with a threat to our survival, this evolutionary tool is invaluable. The trouble begins when our amygdalae misinterprets what things are a threat to us. Often, individuals suffering from anxiety disorders have become caught in the riptide of a process called fear learning, when the amygdala has grown hypersensitive to triggers and phobias that are not truly threats and overpowers the prefrontal cortex, the part of the brain which allows us to reason.


Safety learning or exposure therapy is so effective for people suffering from these disorders because avoidance behaviors, usually cognitive avoidance, feeds into fear learning. By avoiding the trigger that our amygdala has singled out as a threat, we are reinforcing that response. Through this method of avoidance, one’s anxiety goes down initially, but the amygdala interprets this as confirmation that it’s initial assessment of the potential threat was accurate. Consequently, long-term levels of anxiety begin to increase.



“A species that fears rightly increases its chances of survival.”

- Charles Darwin


Anxiety in and of itself is not a negative thing. Like an evolutionary superpower, anxiety protects us from harm. While severe anxiety disorders are a nightmare, there are upsides to being an anxious-prone individual if we learn how to navigate the physical and mental symptoms and harness the emotional ones.


It can alter our perspectives. Certain situational anxieties allow us to pinpoint what is important in our lives. One could also argue that having healthy doses of anxiety these days is a sign that an individual is more in tune with the fact that shit is off in our modern societies.


Anxiety can aid in performance. Some of the greatest students and athletes suffer from different levels of anxiety while taking tests or competing in sports as adrenaline can serve as a natural way of achieving hyper-focus. However, there is a tipping threshold in which anxiety begins to hinder performance, thus the crucial factor to take advantage of the positive aspects is by being able to keep anxiety levels in check.


It is also often found in individuals with leadership roles as we think cautiously when making decisions, take into careful consideration the possibilities of multiple different outcomes, and tend to be good problem solvers. Experiencing anxiety lends to individuals being more empathetic, causing them to note how our choices affect others.


In certain cases, anxiety can act as a superpower. High potential individuals are natural achievers, the move-makers. Enthusiastic, analytical, and fortitudinous, high potential individuals are driven towards challenges we find interesting that allow us to express themselves in an authentic way. Under the right circumstances, these individuals thrive - though there are drawbacks to this mindset.


While, with age, many high potential people learn where to place our focus, create priorities, and navigate the workings of our minds, we can often become overwhelmed by the floods of ideas we experience, hopping from project to project, working nonstop, without much to show for it.


Fear of not being enough is another common issue among the high potential crowd. We have cultivated a society which fears pain - and where there is fear of pain, there is substantial room for anxiety. This form of anxious insecurity can be used as fuel by high potential individuals as a fear-based motivation to charge forward. This can work - until we burn out in a passionate blaze. At its core, this insecurity is crippling, locking us into a downward cycle of inaction and suffering. And despite these fiery burnouts, many high potential individuals are reluctant to change their fear-based motivators, fearing that we might not be able to maintain our level of accomplishment without it.


Nothing could be further from the truth. Our brains run twice as far on clean fuel compared to this toxic alternative. This is powerful knowledge for high potential individuals as it lets us feel safe enough to risk big and unshackles us to create from a place of authentic expression instead of self protection. Therein lies the true freedom for move-makers as trying to meet everyone else’s standards is, on its own, an exhausting task; we can get twice as much accomplished as there is no need to prove ourselves day-to-day and focus on bigger, longer-term projects.




Re-aligning Our Relationship with Anxiety


Perspective


Before carrying on with the tangible tips and mental exercises, we must quickly address the differences between schools of thought regarding emotions and anxiety.


The most prevalent studies on the topic often focus on two major players, the East and West, specifically focusing on the United States and China. Time and again, we find that anxiety and other mood disorders are less common in the East than West; the possibility of developing a mood disorder in the U.S. is about 30%, 20% tying in to major depressive disorders, and only 5% in China, 2% being major depressive disorders.


These numbers, however, do not indicate that Easterners experience more happiness than Westerners, as Americans self-report some of the highest levels of happiness among other Western cultures, such as Canada and Australia. China and other Asian countries like Japan and Korea report happiness ratings as neither extremely happy nor extremely unhappy, hovering the neutral middle. This cross cultural phenomenon has baffled psychologists for years. Countries like the U.S. have substantially larger numbers of individuals experiencing anxiety and depression but also report high levels of subjective well-being. On the other side of the world, countries like China experience less mood disorders but appear to experience less happiness as well.


For decades, most social psychologists believed this occurred due to anxiety and depression being under reported in Asia; this school of thought assumed that the stigma against mental illness was so intensive that Easterners were translating their psychological symptoms into physical ones, such as headaches, stomach aches, and insomnia. However, there is no detailed evidence to support this theory.


In addition, the rates of schizophrenia in Eastern and Western cultures is extremely similar, thus suggesting no reporting bias despite being highly stigmatized. And so, today it is proposed that the difference in emotional disorders is due to how Easterners and Westerners perceive and respond to emotions.


The Western world often views life from an analytical perspective- as black and white, us versus them, good versus evil, happiness versus sadness. The habit of processing our lives into mutually exclusive categories isolates events, objects, and other people from the broader context of our existence. This leads us to seeing the world from an independent perspective, a free agent simply interacting with external situations.


The Eastern world drives from a much more comprehensive and integrated motivation, viewing things in a holistic light. As with Yin-Yang, they expect opposites to coexist. This allows them to view themselves as interdependent when interacting with others and the environment around them in respect to the broader context of life.

Three fundamental differences in perspective:


1. Emotions are contextual. Westerners tend to embody their emotions, thinking of these feelings as arising from themselves. Easterners, on the other hand, view emotions as messengers informing them of their status via the surrounding situations. In this light, tangible choices can be made to alter the contexts of your situation, thus changing your emotions. This slight distancing of emotions allows Easterners to better regulate and navigate. You can do something about these feelings.


2. Emotions are constantly changing - and changeable. Western society views on emotions as arising from a fixed self: individuals who identify as happy must disregard negative experiences as an anomaly, not a part of who they truly are. Eastern cultures see the self as well as emotions as fluid, always changing, all a part of the human experience. They, like all else, are temporary.


3. Emotions co-occur. Too often happiness and sadness are pitted as opposites by Western cultures and so seen as mutually exclusive. We avoid sadness and other feelings perceived as negative as we feel they set us back from our pursuit of happiness. In the Eastern world, contradictory emotions can be felt simultaneously- always some dark in light and some light in dark. These feelings do not preclude happiness.


Let’s consider ways in which these cultural differences in perception affect common behaviors that individuals engage in when experiencing emotions like sadness: suppression and rumination.


Suppressing and ruminating negative emotions is almost never a good idea. Both Western and Eastern cultures engage in these behaviors, yet the outcomes are generally different. In the Western world, we cope with negative moods by retreating into our independent worlds and finding things with which to suppress them, in turn, only increasing the likelihood of submerging further into depressive states. Easterns also suppress emotions, but when these states are felt creeping in, remaining socially active in common, which in turn, can improve moods.


In terms of rumination, the negative emotions that nag and consistently run through our minds cause Easterners to seek solutions to problems; while Westerners often fall into a spiraling cycle of negative thoughts while trying to sort through these “wrong” feelings.


Our psyches are permeated by the cultures from which we hail, ingrained from a young age, but it is important to know that we are not captive of our specific society’s worldview. As humans, we grow by opening ourselves to considering other perspectives and selectively adopting worldviews that tailor well to our ideal lives. You sample different lifestyles, hobbies, diets, routines, etc. until we find the ones that correctly align with our purpose and calling.


Of all the superpowers mankind possesses, free will is by far the most powerful. This is the core of certain stoic philosophies championed by Epictetus, Marcus Arelious, etc. Of all the choices we make, the most powerful one is the way we decide to see ourselves. Self image defines everything from careers we choose, people we marry, how we eat, how we spend Saturday nights, how we react in a crisis, and how we deal with stress and pressure.


Your perspective on anxiety has the power to shape how it impacts you. Viewing stressful events as challenges, rather than threats, can help reap a surge of energy from our anxiety. But first, we must realign our relationship with anxiety, getting far away as possible from the victim mentality and stepping into our own power.



Thought Patterns and Cognitive Distortions


Those prone to anxiety usually engage in some form of unhelpful or cognitively distorted thinking, which reinforces a negative thinking pattern or emotion. The first step in approaching a situation from a healthy, rational place is learning to identify unhelpful thought behaviors. By confronting them again and again, they begin to diminish and we are able to address situations from a balanced standpoint.


Common Cognitive Distortions:


  • All-or-nothing Thinking - allowing things to only exist on the ends of the spectrum; living in black-or-white mindset

  • Jumping to conclusions- this can include Predicting the Future and Mind Reading

  • Catastrophizing - blowing things out of proportion

  • Filtering - having tunnel vision with specific aspects of a situation

  • Personalization - blaming ourselves for things that go wrong in a situation, as well as taking things others do as a direct, personal reaction to us

  • Should Statements - ‘should’s, ‘must’s, and ‘ought to’s are usually used a tactics to improve ourselves but can begin to become seen as ironclad, causing anger or shame towards anyone who steps outside those guidelines, including ourselves

  • Disqualifying the positives - disqualifying or invalidating the positive aspects of a situation

  • Fairness fallacy - spiraling into a self-defeating pattern of resentfulness as we think we know what is fair and someone or the universe won’t agree

  • Emotional reasoning - the fallacy of “If I feel that way, then it must be true…”

  • Overgeneralization - Coming to a general conclusion based on a single piece of information; seeing a never-ending pattern of defeat based off of a few unpleasant incidents

  • Labeling - making global statements by labeling ourselves and ours in specific situations

  • Heaven’s Reward Fallacy - the false belief that our self-denials will eventually pay off


Counters to challenge cognitive distortions:

  • Is this a habitual thought that does not serve me?

  • Can you identify any of the patterns of unhelpful thinking described earlier?

  • Is there any evidence that contradicts this thought?

  • What would you say to a friend who had this thought in a similar situation?

  • What are the costs and benefits of thinking in this way?

  • How will you feel about this in 6 months time?

  • Is there another way of looking at this situation?



Tips for Creating Space to Communicate with Thoughts and Emotions:


  • Use meditation and mindfulness exercises

  • Minimize the unknown. Instead of succumbing to the paralytic weight of worry, focus on identifying and solving for as many variables as can be anticipated for.

  • Get curious about the different ways you learn and grow by observing your own habits

  • Learn how to be your own parent and secretary. From talking yourself down to keeping yourself on track, show up for yourself in big and small ways.

  • Accept what you cannot change.

  • Build in extra time. Be early to be on time and set reasonable expectations.

  • Know your boundaries. Critical for professional or personal success as it is a kind of self-awareness and self care. Observe and understand our boundaries, then create rules to ensure we respect them - particularly if we are introverts or tend to people please

  • Fitness is an important link. Running out excess energy can help balance moods

  • Bio-hack: start feeling calm by acting calm

  • Step away from screens and blue light to spend down time in nature

  • Consciously realize that we are falling into a pattern and choose to respond in a different way.

  • Defuse responsibility through delegation. This requires trust and being more open minded to another’s understanding, skill set, and imagination for tackling and solving problems - even if it’s not exactly how we do it.

  • Select low anxiety environments

  • Write. Journaling, poetry, fiction, doodle - simply the act of streaming your thoughts into something tangible is highly therapeutic

  • For the perfectionists: get comfortable with good enough for now. Managing expectations can be a difficult lesson. It is unrealistic to deliver 100% on all aspects all the time. Make it bad, then make it better. Success is almost always achieved in increments, so something is better than nothing. Small tasks daily will rival the labours of Hercules.

  • Be prepared by having affirmations to ground yourself; something like “With each breath, I am becoming more calm and peaceful.” or “I am choosing to observe instead of reacting to panic. This is a learning process. I can do this.” is great for calming anxiety. My personal favorites are “Slow is smooth. Smooth is fast.” and “Start where you are. Use what you have. Do what you can.” It also helps to have pictures or a mood board to which to refer.

  • Learn to listen to our bodies. When it’s in our gut, it’s intuition; when it’s in our chest, it’s fear.

  • Some work has to be done in the trenches. Grit the fuck up.




Sleep and Anxiety


Sleep and anxiety are without a doubt comorbid and often seen connected via a self reinforcing feedback loop. Many who suffer from anxiety disorders combat a sleep disorder as well. This can happen due to anticipatory anxiety, which occurs when those prone to sleep deprivation are concerned that we might have trouble sleeping, igniting the amygdala and beginning the cycle of anxiety that keeps us up regardless, a self-fulfilling prophecy. Feeling rested is proven to help lower anxiety, and lower anxiety leads to better sleep. Vice versa.

Sleep is one of the most powerful triggers across the board for both those who cope with a disorder and those who do not. It is a powerful form of self care which should be neglected as little as possible.


Tips for a better night’s sleep:

  • Establish your own unique bedtime routine

  • Aim to wake up and go to sleep around the same times

  • No caffeine, screens, or exercising a couple hours before sleep - pick up a damn book or write

  • Sleep in complete darkness or wear an eye mask

  • If napping during the day, limit to 20-30 minutes

  • Keep our bedrooms a sanctuary. Limit bedroom activities to sleep and sex. Eliminate distractions such as television.

  • If unable to fall asleep in a half hour, get out of bed and do something else for a while such as making a cup of tea, taking a walk under the moon, or journal.

  • Use melatonin or CBD oil to help begin regulating sleep cycles

  • Keep a journal near and track nights we slept well/ poorly/ not at all, dreams, etc. We can also write out anxious thoughts as a form of release or schedule a time for us to deal with them once we wake up.

  • Practice introspective meditation or talk to a therapist in order to pinpoint the source of our sleeping problems



Travel and Anxiety


Travel is empowering for the anxious. Travel anxiety stems from general life anxiety, only slightly amplified as we are in new or foreign spaces. Worries can include running out of money, transportation issues, shady characters, possessions getting stolen, parental concerns, trip planning, disappointment or false authenticities, fear of flying, social anxiety, etc.


Our anxieties don’t disappear while we are off the road; they are simply sedated by comfort. So while we’re traveling, we can either bite down and get through it, or we can use travel and the obstacles presented to us with intention, as a means of growth challenges and self improvement. Bravery is born out of practicing courage regularly, so try to use travel not as a situation put on us but one that elevates and empowers.


Nota bene via packing:


I am a nester at heart. It must seem shocking given that I'm a minimalist and often participating in some heart-racing outdoors adrenaline activity, but I truly do enjoy being comfortable and am a total Martha Stewart savant. If there are two skills I picked up from my gypsy childhood, it is how to 1) be prepared for anything and 2) make myself comfortable on the go. The carry-on is an art perfected uniquely for each individual. I have found mine continuously morphing throughout the years, save for several items that have always remained on my general carry-on packing list- including a self care kit for those emergency anxiety moments.